I came to get away from me

found myself

sitting on a doorstep

might be mine

didn't like that 

not at all 

never will 

went back

to find myself

wasn't there 

didn't like that either

tried a third time

you were there

I was not 

kind of 

meant 

the world to me... 

...in a sort of bad way 

so now 

I'll never know 

what matters 

exept I do  

and know 

that I am in tatters.